don't let me down.

People often go on about not having expectations of others and that way you can’t get hurt. Or not trusting anyone so no one can break your trust. I want the exact opposite of this. Yes, of course, it sucks if you give your trust to people and they screw you over with it. It sucks that one person can shape the way you trust (or don’t trust) for the rest of your life. It sucks if someone lets you down. But I feel it would be so much worse if the only reason you were never let down by anyone was because you never gave anyone a chance to do so in the first place. If you never care about someone enough or love them strongly enough to be excruciatingly disappointed when they do something wrong by you, then why bother loving at all? You can’t have happiness without sadness – you need to suffer through some tough times to appreciate the good ones. If I love someone I want to have the absolute highest expectations of them. I want to trust them with my life (let’s face it, essentially that’s what you’re doing when you let yourself love someone, anyone – friends, family, lovers). I’d rather get completely fucked over knowing it’s because I put everything into a relationship than avoid any feeling of disappointment because I didn’t truly invest in it. You always get most annoyed and feel most let down by the people you care most about. This is only natural. Little things they do can frustrate and upset you, whereas if it was someone you didn’t love doing those same things, you probably wouldn’t have a second thought about it. Even when I'm annoyed at the people I love, I always remember that it’s only because I love them so much that I'm able to be annoyed in the first place. I want to live knowing I gave my relationships my all, putting all my trust into people and in turn trusting them with my happiness. And if I get screwed over in the process, I want to be glad that at least it’s because I was able to love that strongly, that deeply, to care that much about it.