I spend way too much time in my own head. I’ve always known this. I'm a thinker. I think about my friends and their relationships, I think about how lucky I am to have what I do, I think about what I'm going to wear the next day/later that night. I can spend an obscene amount of time mentally running through everything in my wardrobe. I think about what might happen in the future, I spend a lot of time doing that too. Then I think about how I know I can’t plan the future so all this thinking is pointless. I think about any issues I have with people and I think about what I want to say to them. I think about how I'm going to say it. I think about what they might respond with. And I do this over and over again. Safe to say, I'm a little nuts. Then again, aren’t we all?
All this thinking, also means I over analyse things too. The upside to this is, I know when to stop. I know when to take a minute and remind myself that I'm just getting up in my own head and I need come back down to earth. Over-thinking is sort of like an indulgence for me; something you know you shouldn’t really do, but you can’t help yourself. But this over-analysing, I believe it’s become more apparent to me in the last few months. My boyfriend is to thank for this. See, I know I do all these things. I know I can read too much into things and, apparently, take things too literally. But you never notice it quite as much as when it’s being pointed out to you.
My boyfriend always points it out. I know it shows a lot more when I'm with him, because I told myself before we met I was going to say exactly what was on my mind with all future relationships, no matter how nuts it made me seem. The great thing about him is, he puts up with it. He listens to me ramble on and question him about things I'm reading too much into, then he tells to stop. He tells me I'm taking it too literally. He pulls me up on it. He gets me out of my own head – sometimes, before I'm ready – and makes me realise I just need to let go. Sometimes, it can be hard to do this by yourself. Sometimes we need other people to give us back some of our own perspective.
